I'm frustrated. I am really in love with the project I'm doing right now. I'm working really hard trying to make my photographs from the back of a horse into something both interesting and technically correct. The logistics of it are really difficult. To ride a horse well, with one hand, ride correctly, hold a camera at the right place, take a picture without always knowing where its pointing... Make the camera exposure be okay, hope it is pointing at something interesting, hope that something is in focus.
I'm more or less enjoying the photos I'm getting. However, after the in class critique we had today.. I feel like no one is seeing what I'm seeing. Is it because I'm photographically not accomplishing my goal? Or is it because I'm the horseback rider in the room, and the photos I'm taking are only speaking to me because I understand them?
I'm frustrated because I feel that everyone thinks what I'm doing is not enough. And really, I'd like to see all them try to do what I'm doing, and realize that it isn't that easy. And what I'm getting from it seems really awesome to me.
I don't want to change what I'm doing to please other people, or even my teacher. I want to photograph what I want to photograph. This is my project.
I'm frustrated.
I totally sympathize with your frustrations. I agree that you shouldn't do what you think others will approve of just to gain their approval. And you should make the work that you want to make - otherwise you are making art for other people and that will quickly become unsatisfying and boring. My hope would be that as you move forward you are making exactly the work you want to make but also that you are critically examining your ideas and your working methods in the context of the ideas and other artists we have talked about in class.
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